Sleep is always a major problem for one with bipolar disorder, you either have restless insomnia or not restless but hyperactive. But no matter what state I was in, when Miki made me imagine that he rocked me in his arms and read me poetry in his native tongue or whispered sweet things, I fell asleep.

Sleep is always a major problem for one with bipolar disorder, you either have restless insomnia or not restless but hyperactive. But no matter what state I was in, when Miki made me imagine that he rocked me in his arms and read me poetry in his native tongue or whispered sweet things, I fell asleep.

On the day that Miki died, as I was talking with him on webcam, he called for emergency to rush him to the hospital then closed his computer. I was agitated and crying, paced, prayed, then threw myself to bed sobbing, strangely I fell into sleep instantly - later on I learned I fell asleep while he was dying! Even now, I have no problems falling into peaceful sleep even when I don't want to. I had never experienced that, almost an instant blackout and I always wake up fresh.

On the day that Miki died, as I was talking with him on webcam, he called for emergency to rush him to the hospital then closed his computer. I was agitated and crying, paced, prayed, then threw myself to bed sobbing, strangely I fell into sleep instantly - later on I learned I fell asleep while he was dying! Even now, I have no problems falling into peaceful sleep even when I don't want to. I had never experienced that, almost an instant blackout and I always wake up fresh.

lindyloo_aus says:
I'm sorry I missed this page. This is so touching, beautiful and sad all in one. Hold on to those wonderful memories you have of Miki
Jun 23, 2008

lukey's mom says:
Beautiful, touching page! Thank you for sharing...
May 4, 2008

Nova1981 says:
**(¨`·.·´¨) (¨`·.·´¨)** BEAUTIFUL PAGE
***`·.¸(¨`·.·´¨)..·´***10+
*******`·.¸.·´*******Bella81
Apr 21, 2008

LADY LUNA 2000 says:
wow! very powerful! Great layout kate! i too struggle with this disease, and understand maybe more than most what this meant to you! we are all with you! Leona
Mar 23, 2008

Tmyers810 says:
This is very touching. Great page and story:)
Mar 11, 2008

*****mattmom***** says:
Such a touching page, I am sure he is by your side every second of every waking moment, for love like this can never die.
Mar 11, 2008

kerri kitten says:
lovely page so beautiful
Mar 11, 2008

mcbrn says:
Stunningly beautiful - your story brings tears to my eyes . . . Hugs
Mar 11, 2008

KarynM says:
the good thing about guardian angels is they never leave us, very poignant page!
Mar 9, 2008

shawtyp says:
CHERISH THE MEMORIES VERY HEARTFELT PAGE
Mar 9, 2008